From Java with Love :)

This is it, the end of the chapter although I believe this is not literally the end. One year journey in Malawi that I committed has flown faster than I could imagine. Right when I started to feel  the beat, right when I realized I am doing something, right when my project manager started to talk to me that making my works a lot easier, right when I was in love with what I am doing, with the people, with place where I am staying, right when I accepted bitter sweet that has happened.  It ended there.

I am going home with pride. I was doing something. I wasn't waste my time. I was gaining what I wanted to get when I said YES to volunteer.  Self acceptance..yesﾅsadly, i didn't appreciate who I was before I went there. Badly, I didn't realize that I was able enough to do big things.  My farmers who were weeping over my leaving  helped me to understand that I did something.  If they could see me as I am why shouldn't i? if they could appreciate who I am why shouldn't i? if they could accept me as I am, why shouldn't i?  The moments that we shared together was significantly changed me as a person.
It wasn't good bye, it was just "see you soon" moments.  Though I don't know how soon, may be in this life, may be in the next life.

Now I am starting my Java chapter.  I hope I can stop comparing so that I can live my life easier. People always told me that my life will change after African experience, which turn to be true. Jakarta seems too big for a small girl like me. Crazy traffics and rush hour makes me missing the solitude in Malawi,  a lot of stairs of crossing bridge make me missing quiet road while walking and crossing the road, plenty of choice of clothes shoes bags makes me missing the simplicity of Karonga, Actress wannabe of 10 year old girl with full of make- up that I met in the mall make me missing Olivia and Wani, the sweetest children in Karonga, People who are busy with their big gadgets makes me miss "Muli Uli" or " Matsuera Bwanji" greetings. Oh, how I live a different life nowﾅI hope I wont turn to be the same human after some timeﾅ

My fellow returned volunteer told me to give myself time that apparently went through the same process. I promise myself to take it easy  and live a day at a time.


Ps: i will keep writing this blog and tell stories about how I miss Malawi. Will also post some photos as I can access faster internet now, so stay tune everyone..

Sweet Love,
Lili